AbbeyMartin

i love feeling when you are sitting at home on a friday night by yourself and you go on facebook and see pictures of your bestfriends having fun without you….. great feeling

I love it when you try your best to be what everyone wants you to be but yet you’re still not good enough. Thats why for now on i wil be me, i am not going to worry what others want me to be because all that really matters in the end is if i lived to the fullest being the best person you can be.

All I’ve ever wanted from you was to be there for me. Be the person i looked up to, be that person that i wish i could be like when i got to be your age. I’ve always loved you but these past few months I’ve questioned it. You have let me down so many times but i have always brushed them off and said you’re my brother i love you anyway. But i don’t know what’s different this time. Maybe I’ve been pushed too many times. Maybe I’ve been let down so many times that the feelings i used to feel towards you can no longer be felt. I don’t know if you will ever learn, if you will ever grow up and just become a fucking man. That’s all I’m asking just grow up. I have sat back and watch you lie and decive all these people that love you. You have ruined so many good things in your life and i have always said you will learn you will get past this. But now,i never ever thought i would get to this point but I’m done you have left me behind too many times i have showed you so many times that i love you and what have you ever shown me? I have never asked of you to ask me how i am or hell show any interest in my life at all. All i wanted was for you to be my brother. Tell that you care about me. Show me just an ounce of respect. When those words ” i can’t stand you” came out of my mouth tonight i hate to say it but it was truthful. I can’t stand the person you are to me i can’t stand how you just can’t give one shit about me when all i have ever done to you is care and love. I am your little sister,a big brother is sopossed to stand up for his little sister protect her and be there for her. I feel as if i can’t even talk to you. You don’t care for anyone else except for yourself and you know what some day that will catch up to you. All i want from you is just to care,i know the six year difference between us is hard but dont you think that would make it easier for you to he there for me? I just want you to be my brother not someone just living here. Im not asking for much just for you my brother to really be my brother.